Ramblings of a Widower

God's wisdom as it echos through my brain.


Genesis 2:18
18 The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

As I approached this topic a few weeks ago, what I really ended up writing about was a help-want, not a help-meet. But the writing was dry, uninspiring, and just not right. And as I contemplated what to say since then, I still approached it wrong. God needed to talk to me; I think I’ve heard from Him. Now, hopefully with my ear tuned to God’s Spirit, I can minister to you. (more…)


Genesis 2:24
24 Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.
Ephesians 5:29-33
29 For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as the Lord does the church. 30 For we are members of His body, of His flesh and of His bones. 31 “For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.” 32 This is a great mystery, but I speak concerning Christ and the church. 33 Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.

Oneness. It takes a lifetime to achieve. As you look about you at those who have been married 10, 20, or 30, years, you see an intangible quality. (more…)


Psalm 64:2-4
2 Hide me from the secret plots of the wicked,
From the rebellion of the workers of iniquity,
3 Who sharpen their tongue like a sword,
And bend their bows to shoot their arrows—bitter words,
4 That they may shoot in secret at the blameless;
Suddenly they shoot at him and do not fear.


They can build up a person,
or tear down a nation.
They can bring beauty to the ear,
or crush the spirit of another.
They can be used to worship the Lord,
or used to darken the world in which we live. (more…)


James 5:13-16
13 Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing psalms. 14 Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. 15 And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. 16 Confess your trespasses[e] to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

I don’t think anyone would doubt the power of prayer. Having survived the last two years, I can look back at how God has worked in our lives, and continues to do so every day. And I know it comes from those believers who have diligently given their time in supplication to the Father.


Song of Solomon 2:4-6, 4:1-3
2:4 He brought me to the banqueting house,
And his banner over me was love.
2:5 Sustain me with cakes of raisins,
Refresh me with apples,
For I am lovesick.
2:6 His left hand is under my head,
And his right hand embraces me.


Beginnings from Endings

2 Chronicles 7:14
14 If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

It’s not that we, as Christians, need to worry about how the world is starting to define marriage, but rather our focus should be on the marriages in our Christian community. I am oddly finding myself amidst several couples whose marriages are on rocky ground or in a perfect storm. But it seems so clear that hearts have hardened, the hurt has been done, and there’s no return to honest work it takes to make a marriage work. (more…)

Pattie’s memorial

Here are the Eulogy and Pamphlet from Pattie’s memorial service.

Pattie Eulogy

Pattie Memorial

The Word

Source Code

God &Word = Elohim;

God is Infinite

Source Code

for (Elohim; Elohim; Elohim);


Declaring God

Source Code

const God Elohim; (more…)